Caltrops - Laurence Fishburne's Dance Dance Revolution





	[quote name="ndd"][quote name="Just Another Mysterious Stranger"]The thing that caught my eye in your story above, and that I believe requires some serious attention from you is... you described joking about it, and the joke fell flat. Really, that is pretty significant for someone like you; it's practically dispositive. An analogy would be a drunk who jokes about being an alcoholic. Every drinker I've ever met who joked about being a drunk, was one. Nearly everyone I know in religious life, who actually belongs in religious life, started with that kind of fascination/repulsion. I'll bet MM joked about being a lawyer before he took the plunge, because I think he has the same depth of calling to law that you might have to the religious life. (And from being in the field along time, I can assure you most lawyers lack that). Anyway, if you're fortunate enough to have a calling, any calling, with that strong a signal, why not follow it. What could go wrong? You're going to fucking die soon enough, why not grab for the gusto? [/quote] Truth, it's genuinely scary. Not Really Settling On Anything was safe and painless. I was shocked to go to the church for the first time and... from ten minutes before the service started up until the end, I was fighting back tears. I couldn't understand where they came from or why. I would start randomly tearing up when discussing this very subject with friends! Completely mysterious. Eventually I realized I'd never been in such a risky situation before: fucking around with something that might actually be important to me after all. Calling or not - these terms still feel awkward and pretentious to me - there are worse reasons to go to grad school and worse disciplines to pick. Thanks for the encouragement.[/quote]