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Re: My girlfriend passed away this morning at 8:18 am by Roop 12/30/2019, 3:42am PST
laudablepuss wrote:

Should tell the story? Do you want to hear what happened now that I know everything and then how it happened? Or the other way around? Long or keep it simple? Should I downplay the frankly unbelievable parts?

I can't write it now. I'm in the house where she used to live with me, melting down. Calling her name and asking where she is, telling her what I'm doing and asking if she needs anything. That kind of madness.

I need to do laundry. I'm doing it like I always do, goddamnit.



This is a really well written post. It really affected me today. Then I was laying in bed all existential tonight, not sleeping, like someone I knew died this morning. I want to say I love all you guys and everything, but come on. We all know you're pretend internet people. It's a great post, laudablepuss, because it's like a poem or something, captures that feeling one has, it's horrible and I know the feelings. The specific time, the anger in the last word.

You did do the fucking laundry, this is good, even if it's autopilot. I think you'll be okay, I hope you will. Some people can't even do the fucking laundry. Did you wonder if you should even do... her laundry? Yes, of course you must, even if it's all destined for Goodwill. I know somebody talked about doing their spouse's laundry one last time, folding it all one last time, using the laundry to cope.

You have to deal with the house, and all her stuff, all the things where she left them, and the smells like she shouldn't be gone. It is like some madness. I think about how the ancients would take people and bury them with their shit, prehistoric people living on the brink. An axe would be such an important thing of value, something that could mean survival and death, but fuck it, get rid of all their shit! They knew. The ancients knew fuck the axe, keeping it around is too hard. People will box the stuff today, and there's so much stuff to box and get rid of, none of us really think about it as we go though life accumulating so much shit. If you're lucky you missed something the right thing because it's nice to have something you can hide away and take out the right time to remember them.

And the funerals are rough, loved ones trying to put on a face for all the friends, and struggle through it. And friends showing up thinking they're helping but they're just all a pain in the ass. So what's the point. Maybe funerals are to find somebody sincere and get them to help you box shit, because that's what's the hard part to do alone.

Hope everything gets better.
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My girlfriend passed away this morning at 8:18 am by laudablepuss 12/29/2019, 11:41am PST NEW
    Take some some time and decompress by The Happiness Engine 12/29/2019, 12:18pm PST NEW
    Oh my god, that's horrible! by Mischief Maker 12/29/2019, 3:28pm PST NEW
    Re: My girlfriend passed away this morning at 8:18 am by Mysteriobama 12/29/2019, 5:51pm PST NEW
    I am so horrified to hear this news my friend. by Ice Cream Jonsey 12/29/2019, 8:00pm PST NEW
    My god by So incredibly awful 12/29/2019, 8:41pm PST NEW
    I’m sorry to hear that. Nothing to add but by blackwater 12/29/2019, 10:23pm PST NEW
    Re: My girlfriend passed away this morning at 8:18 am by Roop 12/30/2019, 3:42am PST NEW
        Re: My girlfriend passed away this morning at 8:18 am by laudablepuss 01/10/2020, 10:57pm PST NEW
    You're next NT by hahahahahaha 12/30/2019, 12:02pm PST NEW
        Wow, that's vile even for this place. NT by pinback 12/30/2019, 3:32pm PST NEW
        Strike one douchebag. NT by Dick Clownshoes 12/30/2019, 5:47pm PST NEW
        Re: You're next by Mysterio 12/31/2019, 4:54am PST NEW
    holy shit, laudable by kyrie derbingingle 12/30/2019, 10:01pm PST NEW
    What happened? NT by Jack Bauer 12/31/2019, 6:39am PST NEW
    The story plus a gofundme by laudablepuss 01/01/2020, 10:59am PST NEW
        Ah, shit, welcome to "The Club" by The Happiness Engine 01/02/2020, 7:38pm PST NEW
            Re: Ah, shit, welcome to "The Club" by laudablepuss 01/10/2020, 6:49pm PST NEW
        Just for historical purposes by laudablepuss 12/24/2020, 12:41am PST NEW
    Gofundme is over, thank you! by laudablepuss 01/10/2020, 6:47pm PST NEW
    Last update, sorry for this sad thread by laudablepuss 01/14/2020, 9:44pm PST NEW
        Hey hey by Ice Cream Jonsey 01/15/2020, 9:58am PST NEW
            Don't talk about her too much by Vested Id 01/15/2020, 3:50pm PST NEW
        thoughts one year later (long, rambling, awful) by laudablepuss 12/24/2020, 12:22am PST NEW
            This is a really good story. by Jerry Whorebach 12/24/2020, 6:29am PST NEW
                :) NT by laudablepuss 12/24/2020, 9:03am PST NEW
            Re: thoughts one year later (long, rambling, awful) by Mischief Maker 12/24/2020, 10:57am PST NEW
                I agree, I hope you will tell us more stories about her when you can, lp. NT by Horus Truthteller 12/24/2020, 12:23pm PST NEW
                This covers everything I wanted to say. by The Happiness Engine 12/27/2020, 12:24pm PST NEW
            so we're done with urgentcare for the night ourselves by Saltlord 12/24/2020, 5:15pm PST NEW
                I somehow missed this reply! by laudablepuss 09/12/2021, 7:54am PDT NEW
            My attendance here is spotty, so I missed this before. by Entropy Stew 12/27/2020, 1:00pm PST NEW
            I'm sorry, laudablepuss. by Fullofkittens 12/27/2020, 1:35pm PST NEW
 
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