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by Flurgendorf J. Creexul 08/17/2003, 12:06am PDT

INC (11:01:50 PM): your story made me sad
INC (11:02:06 PM): also, I ordered a pizza about 2 minutes before reading it
INC (11:02:13 PM): so now I feel sad AND guilty
Jhoh Cable (11:02:34 PM): OHHHHHH
Jhoh Cable (11:02:38 PM): I want a fucking pizza.
INC (11:02:38 PM): nigga
Jhoh Cable (11:02:46 PM): The pizza places were closed yesterday night actually.
INC (11:02:50 PM): I couldn't decide between dominos and numero unos
Jhoh Cable (11:02:51 PM): We got a bunch of snacks and that was nice though.
INC (11:02:57 PM): yeah, no power = no pizza
Jhoh Cable (11:03:11 PM): Personally, if the power had just come back on, I'd celebrate with a nice pizza or something.
Jhoh Cable (11:03:15 PM): I'd do something.
Jhoh Cable (11:03:20 PM): I might even spend $5!
Jhoh Cable (11:03:24 PM): But apparently, no.
INC (11:03:33 PM): where does the money go? If not for food?
Jhoh Cable (11:03:53 PM): I have no idea.
INC (11:07:09 PM): and video cards
INC (11:07:14 PM): who has a $10 video card?
Jhoh Cable (11:07:30 PM): Actually it would be $0 if I lived near him.
Jhoh Cable (11:07:32 PM): Like in his city.
Jhoh Cable (11:07:37 PM): It's $10 for the shipping.
INC (11:07:42 PM): it's free!
INC (11:07:44 PM): that's good
Jhoh Cable (11:07:48 PM): And then we were going to give him $20 extra just because.
INC (11:08:08 PM): why does Jsoh get SSI? Did he have a job?
Jhoh Cable (11:08:12 PM): The card is a Radeon 8500 that he's not using.
Jhoh Cable (11:08:18 PM): He did, but I think he was getting SSI then too.
INC (11:08:39 PM): that's weird
INC (11:08:48 PM): I thought you only got it after you were employed a while
Jhoh Cable (11:08:53 PM): Well it's some kind of deal mom dragged us through and made us get.
INC (11:08:59 PM): ohh
Jhoh Cable (11:09:06 PM): I didn't get SSI, but I guess I could've if I went to that extremely demeaning retard school.
Jhoh Cable (11:09:28 PM): Going to a retard school is kind of like going to prison, except you go home (which is also like prison) after 7 hours each day.
Jhoh Cable (11:09:53 PM): What was really dumb is that he would go to the high school or something for an hour every day, and then on Wednesday the high school would start an hour later than other days, so he wouldn't go there at all.
Jhoh Cable (11:10:01 PM): But the teachers counted him as absent every day he didn't go there.
Jhoh Cable (11:10:12 PM): So every Wednesday he would be absent according to them.
INC (11:10:17 PM): why?
Jhoh Cable (11:10:39 PM): Because high school would start an hour later. :(
Jhoh Cable (11:10:47 PM): So the bus would just take him to the retard school instead.
INC (11:10:50 PM): oh, I missed that one
Jhoh Cable (11:10:54 PM): Yes. >:(!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jhoh Cable (11:10:58 PM): It is complicated.
Jhoh Cable (11:11:11 PM): But the stupidness outweighs the complicatedness.
INC (11:11:34 PM): the high school was before the retard school? Or after?
INC (11:11:38 PM): or something?
INC (11:11:48 PM): plus, why was he at the retard school?
Jhoh Cable (11:12:28 PM): He would go to the high school first, for the first hour of the day every day.
Jhoh Cable (11:12:36 PM): He was at a retard school because mom said so.
INC (11:12:36 PM): oh, okay
Jhoh Cable (11:12:39 PM): She signed him up.
INC (11:12:44 PM): but he's not retarded
Jhoh Cable (11:12:47 PM): He actually went to the special olympics once.
INC (11:12:54 PM): what?
Jhoh Cable (11:12:55 PM): And he beat everyone there and took a gold in every fucking thing he did.
Jhoh Cable (11:13:06 PM): Because of course everyone else was retarded, therefore easy to beat.
Jhoh Cable (11:13:21 PM): I think it was a local special olympics thing though.
INC (11:13:21 PM): didn't they get mad a non-retard was competing?
Jhoh Cable (11:13:26 PM): I don't think they knew.
Jhoh Cable (11:13:32 PM): Josh didn't talk to anyone in the entire school, I don't think.
Jhoh Cable (11:13:46 PM): And by the way these retards aren't like Hollywood retards you have in LA. :(
INC (11:14:01 PM): oh, I came from a small town in Florida, I know those kinds of retards
Jhoh Cable (11:14:03 PM): Retards in the real world aren't all nice and fun and secretly smart like Forrest Gump or the retarded guys in Farrely brothers movies.
Jhoh Cable (11:14:06 PM): Okay.
Jhoh Cable (11:14:10 PM): So you know what real ones are like. :(
INC (11:14:17 PM): we had "Sunland" there, and we all knew what was going on over there
INC (11:14:22 PM): or what we thought was going on over there
INC (11:14:33 PM): doesn't it drive Jsoh crazy to sit in the classrooms there?
Jhoh Cable (11:15:26 PM): He stopped going after like one or two years.
Jhoh Cable (11:15:27 PM): And yes.
Jhoh Cable (11:15:32 PM): I don't think he ever recovered actually.
INC (11:15:39 PM): did you mom think he had a learning disability?
Jhoh Cable (11:15:43 PM): It's probably one of the most emotionally demeaning things someone could ever do.
Jhoh Cable (11:15:54 PM): Well I think that she was convinced of it, even if she didn't believe it.
INC (11:16:00 PM): my dad sent me to a school for "problem kids" after I got kicked out of my first high school
INC (11:16:05 PM): but that only lasted one semester
Jhoh Cable (11:16:11 PM): She still asks us WELL DON'T YOU THINK YOU'RE AUTISTIC? THEY SAY THAT EINSTEIN WAS AUTISTIC
INC (11:16:37 PM): that's like asking SB if he's bipolar
Jhoh Cable (11:18:19 PM): HE IS
INC (11:18:33 PM): yeah, but phrasing it like it's cool to have bipolar
Jhoh Cable (11:18:44 PM): Mom insists that we're autistic or whatever though and she loves working with retarded 40 year old guys.
INC (11:18:55 PM): what does she do?
Jhoh Cable (11:18:59 PM): There was like a 30 year old guy who was like WOW A NINTENDO!!!!!!!! and he hooked it up and played it non stop.
Jhoh Cable (11:19:02 PM): At one of her group homes.
Jhoh Cable (11:19:09 PM): She's a nurse for group homes.
INC (11:19:11 PM): oh, does she volunteer or is that her job
Jhoh Cable (11:19:13 PM): Where retards live tgether.
INC (11:19:13 PM): ah, okay
Jhoh Cable (11:19:16 PM): It's her job I guess.
INC (11:19:28 PM): so, she thinks she got lucky and had two retards herself?
Jhoh Cable (11:19:34 PM): Yes.
Jhoh Cable (11:19:50 PM): Just like how a lot of parents are more proud to have retarded kids than normal functional kids.
Jhoh Cable (11:19:58 PM): Because if they have normal kids, then what is there to do with them?
Jhoh Cable (11:20:11 PM): How can they love and care for someone who doesn't have a massive defect?
INC (11:20:22 PM): yeah, I can see that. Sadly enough
Jhoh Cable (11:20:22 PM): It is part of the new boomer mentality of misplaced care.
INC (11:20:31 PM): so, what's the plan? Are you guys gonna live there forever?
Jhoh Cable (11:21:14 PM): Definitely not.
Jhoh Cable (11:21:18 PM): Although for a while we figured we'd have to.
Jhoh Cable (11:21:24 PM): Because we figured there would be no escape ever.
Jhoh Cable (11:21:30 PM): Because that means mom wouldn't be able to get Josh's SSI.
INC (11:21:37 PM): you're out of high school now, though, right?
Jhoh Cable (11:21:47 PM): Josh gets $100, after mom gets $400.
Jhoh Cable (11:21:48 PM): Per month.
Jhoh Cable (11:21:53 PM): I dropped out of high school, yes.
Jhoh Cable (11:22:00 PM): Josh dropped out of the retard school.
INC (11:22:07 PM): so, that's it? Now what?
Jhoh Cable (11:22:19 PM): It shouldn't be a surprise that we just stopped going at a certain point, instead of actually ever deciding to quit. :
Jhoh Cable (11:22:20 PM): :(
Jhoh Cable (11:22:36 PM): Well now, next month I go to Schoolcraft College and get certified to do medical transcription.
Jhoh Cable (11:22:44 PM): Then next year by this time I'll be trying to move out.
INC (11:23:15 PM): is that what you want to do?
INC (11:23:20 PM): medical transcription?
Jhoh Cable (11:23:55 PM): It's what I can do.
INC (11:24:30 PM): who told you about that? Your mom?
Jhoh Cable (11:24:38 PM): Kind of.
Jhoh Cable (11:24:49 PM): It was mostly my idea though.
Jhoh Cable (11:24:51 PM): Since it involves typing.
Jhoh Cable (11:24:59 PM): And I thought, well I can kill plenty of time each day doing this.
Jhoh Cable (11:25:05 PM): It's not like I have a lot of social life to spend.
INC (11:25:23 PM): yeah, but if you move out and get income, you will
INC (11:25:29 PM): but having a day job isn't so bad, i think
Jhoh Cable (11:26:07 PM): I don't have a problem with it.
Jhoh Cable (11:26:12 PM): Especially since I could probably do it from home.
INC (11:26:16 PM): what about Jsoh?
Jhoh Cable (11:26:18 PM): Even if I didn't though I wouldn't have a problem with that.
Jhoh Cable (11:26:25 PM): I'd need Josh to drive me I think.
Jhoh Cable (11:26:35 PM): Although I don't know.
Jhoh Cable (11:26:40 PM): I might learn to drive, maybe.
Jhoh Cable (11:27:08 PM): So are you going to post this whole thing to Caltrops or what?
INC (11:27:11 PM): no
INC (11:27:17 PM): it's not anyone's business
Jhoh Cable (11:27:18 PM): So I'll have to.
INC (11:27:23 PM): yeah, you have to
INC (11:27:27 PM): It's depressing
Jhoh Cable (11:27:27 PM): OkY.
Jhoh Cable (11:27:30 PM): :(
Jhoh Cable (11:27:34 PM): We've learned to deal with it.
Jhoh Cable (11:27:38 PM): After like 6 or 7 years.
INC (11:27:42 PM): yeah, I guess so
Jhoh Cable (11:27:54 PM): In fact it's incredibly easy for us to live like this now.
INC (11:28:06 PM): yeah maybe too easy]
Jhoh Cable (11:28:21 PM): I think it was because of puberty.
Jhoh Cable (11:28:34 PM): When that shit happened we both stopped talking to people except for that one dude we know.
Jhoh Cable (11:28:43 PM): I haven't ever made a new friend since then.
INC (11:28:52 PM): yeah, time to get out of the house
Jhoh Cable (11:28:54 PM): So technically we haven't made a new friend in real life since we were like 4 years old.
Jhoh Cable (11:28:59 PM): There's nowhere to go.
Jhoh Cable (11:29:04 PM): We aren't allowed to go out at night.
INC (11:29:07 PM): oh
Jhoh Cable (11:29:13 PM): Sometimes when we do, mom locks the hallway door.
Jhoh Cable (11:29:16 PM): So we can't leave our room.
INC (11:29:17 PM): aren't you over 18?
Jhoh Cable (11:29:21 PM): We're 22.
Jhoh Cable (11:30:07 PM):
Josh Cable (11:15:44 PM): it was the special olympics with real retards
Jhoh Cable (11:17:01 PM): So you got a gold for everything right?
Jhoh Cable (11:17:04 PM): Where are the medals? :(
Josh Cable (11:17:13 PM): I didnt compete in everything
Jhoh Cable (11:17:16 PM): Does the school keep them because they figure retards would want to share with the school?
Josh Cable (11:17:18 PM): I dont remember
Josh Cable (11:17:28 PM): I think we kept them
Jhoh Cable (11:17:44 PM): The teacher probably kept them so they could be like LOOK ONE OF MY STUDENTS WON THE GOLD so they can live vicariously through shitty achievements of retarded olympics.
Josh Cable (11:18:43 PM): I took home every single gold medal they had
Josh Cable (11:19:07 PM): it was kind of funny to watch the kids who couldnt walk do the relay race and shit
Josh Cable (11:19:17 PM): theyre limping like cretins
Josh Cable (11:19:27 PM): I felt a little depressed watching that shi
INC (11:31:12 PM): this is turning into an Amber4Ever log
Jhoh Cable (11:33:16 PM): :(
Jhoh Cable (11:33:24 PM): Fussbett thinks I am making some of this shit up.
INC (11:33:31 PM): I am beginning to think so, too
Jhoh Cable (11:33:36 PM): No, it's true. :(
INC (11:33:37 PM): the hallway locking thing
Jhoh Cable (11:33:44 PM): I could send a pic.
Jhoh Cable (11:33:48 PM): Not easily of course.
Jhoh Cable (11:33:56 PM): She hasn't been locking the door for about a week either.
Jhoh Cable (11:34:01 PM): But before that she was, for about a month.
INC (11:34:03 PM): of a locked door?
Jhoh Cable (11:35:04 PM): Well only at night.
Jhoh Cable (11:35:13 PM): So we wouldn't get into the kitchen and eat anything at night.
Jhoh Cable (11:35:32 PM): Which was sometimes when we were waking up, because depending on how long we would stay up and how long we would sleep, we'd be asleep during the day and then awake all night.
INC (11:36:51 PM): so what do you guys do all day?
Jhoh Cable (11:37:04 PM): We're on the computers mostly.
Jhoh Cable (11:39:26 PM): Anyway I could send a pic of the hallway door with the lock (on the other side).
Jhoh Cable (11:39:31 PM): That is if I cared enough. :(
INC (11:39:36 PM): no, you don't have to
INC (11:39:49 PM): I should have had this pizza sent to you guys instead
Jhoh Cable (11:40:48 PM): Did I tell about the time that Josh told moom to save up the $400 checks for about 4 months, so we could gain the deposit to move out while I got a job?
INC (11:41:06 PM): her checks or his?
Jhoh Cable (11:41:07 PM): After the 4 months mom said she only had $800, and when Josh asked for it, she says she already spent it.
Jhoh Cable (11:41:08 PM): His.
Jhoh Cable (11:41:14 PM): They're his checks, but she gets them.
Jhoh Cable (11:41:16 PM): She has a job too.
INC (11:41:17 PM): I thought he got $100
Jhoh Cable (11:41:23 PM): He gets $100.
Jhoh Cable (11:41:34 PM): It's $500 all together.
INC (11:41:39 PM): right
INC (11:41:49 PM): but you said to save up the $400 checks - I thought htose were hers
Jhoh Cable (11:42:01 PM): She gets them because of him.
INC (11:42:09 PM): ah, okay
INC (11:42:22 PM): even if you get a place, you're going to need money for rent
Jhoh Cable (11:42:29 PM): If we lived on our own, he would be getting the checks.
Jhoh Cable (11:42:38 PM): I'm sure I could pay the rent with job money.
INC (11:42:39 PM): yeah, but that's not enough to pay rent, I think
INC (11:42:45 PM): yeah, that might work
Jhoh Cable (11:42:45 PM): Although the SSI would be a really good way to pay the rent too.
INC (11:42:51 PM): that's what it's for
INC (11:42:59 PM): if you're 22
Jhoh Cable (11:43:07 PM): Mom says she gets the $400 for rent.
INC (11:43:12 PM): you guys should just call SSI and have the checks sent to a PO Box somewhere
Jhoh Cable (11:43:30 PM): Actually she doesn't say that she gets it, she specifically tells us that she takes it from us as rent.
Jhoh Cable (11:43:53 PM): We don't really have the will to go against what's going on right now.
INC (11:43:55 PM): then tell her you'll move out and she doesn't have to worry about rent from you guys anymore
INC (11:44:02 PM): yeah, I sense that
Jhoh Cable (11:44:07 PM): We've been telling her that for years.
Jhoh Cable (11:44:10 PM): We can't move out without that money.
INC (11:44:12 PM): I couldn't wait to move out when I turned 18
Jhoh Cable (11:44:45 PM): When we were 18 we were going to 7 hour shop classes with deformed kids who didn't have the capacity to speak and had huge scars and bruises on their faces from hitting themselves.
Jhoh Cable (11:45:07 PM): We didn't even know how many years we were behind in high school terms, and Josh found out that he wouldn't leave the retard school until he was like 26.
Jhoh Cable (11:45:21 PM): According to the school at least.
INC (11:45:45 PM): is that he always is so annoying on IMs?
Jhoh Cable (11:46:42 PM): Yes.
Jhoh Cable (11:46:53 PM): Actually I don't know.
INC (11:47:02 PM): my cat is just sitting there staring at me
Jhoh Cable (11:47:02 PM): Whenever he runs out of weed he gets really really really irritable.
INC (11:47:03 PM): creepy
INC (11:47:10 PM): you guys have money for pot?
Jhoh Cable (11:47:15 PM): The $100.
Jhoh Cable (11:47:26 PM): Most months he'll spend half of it on weed.
INC (11:47:28 PM): your mom lets him have the $100?
INC (11:48:03 PM): okay,, the pizza is here
INC (11:48:05 PM): I have to go
Jhoh Cable (11:48:06 PM): Yes.
Jhoh Cable (11:48:09 PM): Oayk!

Jhoh Cable (11:01:30 PM): So did you see Freddy vs. Jason?
Fussbett (11:05:44 PM): No. That's a good idea though.
Fussbett (11:05:53 PM): Can your mom lend me some money?
Jhoh Cable (11:05:58 PM): I don't think so!
Jhoh Cable (11:06:05 PM): Maybe if you mow the lawn.
Jhoh Cable (11:06:24 PM): Actually she seems to pay people who do shit here more money than she gives us.
Fussbett (11:13:33 PM): Your brother was in the Special Olympics?!
Jhoh Cable (11:14:22 PM): GASP INC IS TALKING ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK?
Jhoh Cable (11:14:24 PM): TROLL (EVIL)
Jhoh Cable (11:14:27 PM): I think he was.
Jhoh Cable (11:14:29 PM): I don't know.
Fussbett (11:15:04 PM): That's pretty big news. I'd tell everyone I knew. If it wasn't fake news. :(
Jhoh Cable (11:18:08 PM): ;-;
Jhoh Cable (11:18:14 PM): It's a long story anyway.
Fussbett (11:20:21 PM): So it's sorta true but different?
Fussbett (11:22:01 PM): I demand the long story!
Jhoh Cable (11:23:07 PM): I'm giving the long one to TewtINC. :(
Jhoh Cable (11:23:09 PM): OHHHHH LONG ONE
Jhoh Cable (11:23:10 PM): (DICK)
Fussbett (11:30:17 PM): I think you're lying to INC.
Fussbett (11:30:29 PM): INCSuite
Jhoh Cable (11:30:35 PM): NO
Jhoh Cable (11:30:38 PM): About what?
Fussbett (11:30:53 PM): About the Special Olympics and the locking the door.
Jhoh Cable (11:30:57 PM): Hurh.
Jhoh Cable (11:30:59 PM): No, that's true.
Fussbett (11:31:19 PM): So at a certain time, your mom locks the room so that you can't leave your room?
Jhoh Cable (11:31:20 PM): Only Josh knows all the shit about the Special Olympics, I don't know if it was the actual Special Olympics.
Jhoh Cable (11:31:23 PM): I said I thought it was a local one.
Jhoh Cable (11:31:33 PM): But the lock in the hallway is real, mom locks us in our room.
Jhoh Cable (11:31:47 PM): We can go in our room or the bathroom and that's it, unless we go out our window, which is kind of blocked by one of our computers now.
Fussbett (11:32:00 PM): Because if it's not locked, you'll leave the house and... what?
Fussbett (11:32:06 PM): Do you guys set fires or something?
Jhoh Cable (11:32:14 PM): At night, like 10 PM, at times, she would decide that we made too much of a mess in the kitchen (dishes and shit) and she would lock the hallway door.
Jhoh Cable (11:32:19 PM): No.
Jhoh Cable (11:32:31 PM): She doesn't want us going out at night because she doesn't want us opening the door or leaving it unlocked or whatever.
Jhoh Cable (11:32:51 PM): Plus we don't know any place that we could go at 2 AM and we don't personally know anyone in the entire city.
Jhoh Cable (11:33:10 PM): In fact I think we have to go like two cities over before getting to anyone we know.
Jhoh Cable (11:33:11 PM): And then that's it.
Fussbett (11:33:29 PM): So you don't rebel because you've got reason to leave anyway?
Jhoh Cable (11:34:49 PM): Actually it's because our wills are completely broken.
Fussbett (11:35:27 PM): Was there an era when you had strong wills? And you'd run wild in the streets?
Jhoh Cable (11:35:49 PM): When we were in like 5th grade.
Jhoh Cable (11:36:09 PM): Then in 6th grade we went through puberty and went to middle school.
Jhoh Cable (11:36:16 PM): And that's when we stopped talking to everyone.
Jhoh Cable (11:36:21 PM): Mostly including our one friend guy.
Jhoh Cable (11:36:30 PM): Then we moved, and didn't talk to anyone and stopped leaving our room.
Jhoh Cable (11:36:45 PM): And it's been that way since like 1994.
Fussbett (11:39:51 PM): Holy shit. Well, I guess maybe you are indeed autistic.
Jhoh Cable (11:39:58 PM): :9
Jhoh Cable (11:39:59 PM): :(
Jhoh Cable (11:40:04 PM): Well that's what mom keeps saying.
Jhoh Cable (11:40:07 PM): We just don't like people.
Jhoh Cable (11:40:13 PM): But especially retards.
Jhoh Cable (11:40:33 PM): After being shoved into retard schools for a year or so, you don't really gain a taste for enjoying people's company.
Jhoh Cable (11:47:47 PM): It's funny that when we tell most people this, they're like WOW I NEVER THOUGHT OF YOU AS RETARDED/AUTISTIC or whatever.
Jhoh Cable (11:47:54 PM): And it's like yes, that would also be a surprise to me.
Jhoh Cable (11:49:01 PM): The story is depressing though.
Fussbett (11:49:10 PM): So do you argue this point with your mom? "HELO MOM, I disagree. I don't think I'm autistic."
Jhoh Cable (11:49:20 PM): I think if we were retarded or autistic, we'd try to talk to people more, because we were definitely social in 5th grade.
Jhoh Cable (11:49:31 PM): We were perfectly normal if not vaguely overachieving in the 5th grade.
Jhoh Cable (11:49:36 PM): After that everything changed.
Jhoh Cable (11:49:42 PM): We don't bother.
Jhoh Cable (11:49:48 PM): But we call her a cunt on occasion.
Jhoh Cable (11:49:55 PM): For bringing up shit like that.
Fussbett (11:50:13 PM): Nice. Then you get locked in your hallway probably.
Jhoh Cable (11:50:23 PM): Yes.
Fussbett (11:50:24 PM): How did Cyandies feel about all this?
Jhoh Cable (11:50:39 PM): She said I NEVER THOUGHT OF YOU AS AUTISTIC
Jhoh Cable (11:51:07 PM): And that it was really lame and sad and stuff.
Jhoh Cable (11:51:11 PM): And it's like yes, pretty much.
Fussbett (11:51:38 PM): But then she didn't come and rescue you. :(
Jhoh Cable (11:52:42 PM): No.
Jhoh Cable (11:52:46 PM): She's not rich. :(
Jhoh Cable (11:53:05 PM): I definitely don't disagree that living here sucks a lot.
Jhoh Cable (11:54:48 PM): I don't think we're autistic though.
Jhoh Cable (11:54:53 PM): Maybe odd.
Jhoh Cable (11:55:54 PM): At least that's what I think at least.
Fussbett (11:56:20 PM): You don't draw like an autistic artist.
Jhoh Cable (11:56:54 PM): I draw like a retard. :)!
Fussbett (11:57:50 PM): True!
Jhoh Cable (11:58:01 PM): If I could draw then I'd be GREAT.