Hey babe, this is my little love secret story wt u, hope u enjoy reading it! Something always in my heart that i wan to tell u now as i've time when we r stil together...
I don't know whether u can believe or not my love for u is still vry strong n crazy even until i wish i could be yr slave one day! Actually i did told u before that i dont mind even if u found the girl u love n wan to marry n have children with later as i know we have no future together but i stil beg u to let me have a child wt u then u can leave me forever as u wish or at least let me follow u whenever u go if i cant have a child wt u something like that when i was so crazy in love wt u! I don't know whether u stil can remember... I think that's why u despise me a lot or even worst since then n i despise myself too. I don't know why i stil can be so crazy for u again even we've stayed apart for more than two months n i've tried many way to convince myself we may have broken up! But now i don't know why i don't think it's that shameful anymore to tell u again that i wish i could be yr slave as may be i keep thinkin that my life wil be much more interesting, enjoyable or fortunate wt u if i could be wt u now, be yr helps, yr pleasures or anything u like when i've the chance again! I hope i can take care of u the way i take care of myself even i know u can take care of yrself very well as i think u may stil care about me.... Even i know u r a lot younger than me but i hope i can stil love u the way u love me or as much as possible wt my life n hope i can die at the same time as u or before u if possible! I know it's crazy as u don't love me as much as i love u but may be to me i think i've found someone i love at least in my life who willing to share his two years wt me! May be that's good enough but may be it would be even better if i could choose again to stay wt the one i love or even to be his slave one day n for the rest of my life if possible for someone as crazy n hopeless like me who have no family of her own to devote her life on someone she think she loved or at least she stil hope it wil be better than unrequited love! I know it's very painful n hard to believe but it could happen as this is what i really wan to do wt my life if i've the choice n for the rest of my life to follow u whenever u go if possible! Hope i dont scare u! To me i dont mind to be the slave of my love anymore as at least i can be wt him all the time n taking care of him. At least he can see how i'm growing old each day rather than choosing a life of being myself wt all the freedoms i've but growing old by myself wt no one to see... I rather let u enjoy all my remaining youngful time i've! U know i can also take care of yr childrens later when i old if u wan in the future wt yr young wife or if i cant have any baby wt u anymore. Hope u can consider my wish in the future when u need a servant in yr life. I know is vry hard for u to consider now as u dont have money n i'm stil in a vry shit situation wt no job at all so who wan to believe or help me!

Hope our Lord or my family can forgive me to say something like that to u!