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by Zseni 03/31/2003, 2:30pm PST

Okay so here's the problem:

I once had a dream that the yaoigirls found out about the articles, and at that time I was glad. But now I've had another dream that they found out, and I was not glad. Much has changed, and now it's not a questions of whether they'll be merely stung by Fangirls in the Mist - it's a question of whether they'll be crushed, and whether discovering something like that could genuinely hurt those girls who have taken me a little too much to heart. And I invited myself there, so it's my big retarded fault for (at this point) recklessly endangering them.

At this point I am considering asking the admins to yank all the articles, and even delete the log posts from this forum. That's what will happen unless there are no better ideas. Better ideas will do one of two things, and preferably both:

1. Keep the articles out of all search engines - I mean completely out - and I'll be talking to the google boys to clear their present cached copies out as well.

2. Keep the yaoigirls out of the articles, or at least establish enough ambiguity that they can't say for certain whether those articles are really about them.

There is also a third option, one that will require an entirely different kind of retarded ruthlessness: future articles will have to take into account my own growing responsibility for the girls, and I will have to make it completely plain that they have, in so many very gay and difficult words, won me over and made me want to protect them - even the ones I absolutely and honestly despise must be kept safe so that the others aren't affected. Even from the beginning I talked about my own weaknesses, but that's not the same as reassuring them, in a roundabout way designed for eventualities, that I genuinely do care about them, and I want them to be well and happy despite my experimentation on and betrayal of them. But that's hard. I might not be that smart.

In any event: looking for a forum quorum and some solutions here.