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| a mistake, chapter 9: even later last week by Noi Dau Don 06/24/2010, 1:54pm PDT | ||||
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| (4:49:47 PM) NDD: s-sofia get out of the shower and tell me what the damage is
(5:29:13 PM) Sofia: w-well there's been no mention of it so far, but er, brb (5:49:07 PM) Sofia: AQUA 8:48 pm (8:48:10 PM): aaah. (8:48:19 PM): lol (8:48:22 PM): yeah, it's fine. (8:48:30 PM): i thought the writing style was familiar (5:49:10 PM) Sofia: there you go (6:04:23 PM) NDD: OH GOD SHE'S FURIOUS WITH ME (6:04:32 PM) Sofia: ... (6:05:22 PM) Sofia: i doubt it. (6:06:35 PM) Sofia: ...a-are you still freaking out. (6:10:15 PM) NDD: yes and no (6:10:35 PM) Sofia: ..? (6:11:16 PM) NDD: well i mean i am glad if there's no permanent damage (6:11:28 PM) NDD: but i will probably never live down the whole thing as a faux pas in the abstract (6:11:42 PM) NDD: I mean there's the damage to the person which was thankfully minimal (i hope) (6:12:23 PM) NDD: then there's the damage to like - my entire internal system of laws of hospitality and revenge (6:12:35 PM) NDD: which basically had a truck driven through it SO lol. (6:12:47 PM) NDD: it really was the worst of all possible worlds (6:14:25 PM) Sofia: well, again, i reiterate (6:16:09 PM) Sofia: the only way you could have known (aside from my telling you) is through hardcore stalking, which i think is kind of really the worse option here, so. i don't really see the superior levels of wrongness here. (6:16:59 PM) Sofia: ...and btw, that [OMITTED] is also aqua, jsyk. (6:18:49 PM) Sofia: ......and i really should have told you sooner, fff. sorry. (6:19:49 PM) NDD: this is still (6:19:52 PM) NDD: like - five for five (6:20:00 PM) NDD: maybe six fuck I don't even know by now (6:20:19 PM) Sofia: ...what does that mean. (6:20:28 PM) NDD: aqua is a giant fucking iceberg whose tip is a perfect sapphire let's just drive the boat over there and see what's up (6:20:41 PM) NDD: oh look (6:20:44 PM) NDD: we crashed again (6:20:47 PM) NDD: high fives dudes (6:20:59 PM) NDD: *ship's crew administers a round of high fives* (6:21:41 PM) Sofia: 8| (6:21:56 PM) NDD: For someone like me, whose greatest pleasures in life are 1) being a good host, 2) being a subtle opponent, and 3) winning - I just cannot seem to stop striking out hard on this one person (6:22:23 PM) NDD: and of course this one person is very important to this other person who is very important to me, so I can't just friggin pull out (6:22:26 PM) NDD: I mean (6:22:33 PM) NDD: in its own way the whole thing is spectacularly hilarious (6:22:49 PM) NDD: a comedy of manners, and if it was presented on stage or in a movie I would be laughing my ass off and cringing every minute (6:23:28 PM) NDD: Sure you might have told me something sooner, and perhaps this particular incident would have been avoided, but haha you're not the NDD & Aqua Cops! (6:23:39 PM) NDD: You're supposed to be having a good time, and instead: psychodrama. (6:23:47 PM) NDD: Fucking /kicks every can in the universe (6:24:15 PM) NDD: No, the only thing for it - how to solve this problem (6:25:28 PM) NDD: Bear with me another minute or two and I'll pull something out of my ass on this one. (6:25:52 PM) Sofia: dude (6:27:07 PM) NDD: Don't worry, don't worry, it won't be anything ridiculous or dramatic or whatever. I just have to figure out a way to keep all my promises and obligations without making any for you or anyone else. (6:28:22 PM) NDD: I'll have to go back to an invite only thing, where I do open posts but don't tag out spontaneously. Really it's not a big thing at all, fuck knows I am drowing in tags all the time anyway. And as well, what to do about Chang. I harbor the impression that that character is - important to her? a favorite or something? y/n? (6:31:01 PM) Sofia: look, can we just pause for a second. i'm just-- (6:31:31 PM) NDD: /p-pauses (6:33:08 PM) Sofia: i'm not very eloquent right now, or ever, but really -- i realize it's really important to you to keep your word and everything, but honestly, it's rp in a fucking smut dressing room, and this is getting waaaaaay too... intense. (6:34:37 PM) NDD: Th....that's a problem I have. OTOH it's actually not just a smut dressing room, and there's a reason why it's important to keep my word and, as well, to go a little past the ordinary in keeping my word. (6:35:16 PM) NDD: In maybe - a year and a half or two years, provided I manage the growth well and all my dumb schemes work out, all this dressing room nonsense will have money behind it This is in fact true and I would go on to explain a little about it to Sofia; there is a plan in place to monetize this stupid community I started. Naturally I cannot share deets with YOU clowns, you'd take the idea right out from under me and do it better, faster. (6:37:52 PM) NDD: So I want to keep my word because it's my word, and because you're involved, and because I don't want trouble from anyone much less aqua... but also because my nose has got to be clean, ne? (6:38:22 PM) NDD: and so: first and foremost is that players are happy and comfortable. (6:39:29 PM) NDD: ...and so you have the schemes of an anxious schemer. (6:40:26 PM) NDD: who cannot seem to stop fucking up with this one particular person, for better or worse, accidentally or not. If i get a little intense about it - I'm ... really really sorry that you're caught catching the full brunt of my whining at the moment (6:41:33 PM) NDD: a-anyway I'll just go ahead and shut up about it now! (6:41:37 PM) Sofia: but... this is kind of accomplishing the opposite. you're two people who dislike each other who happen to be roleplaying in the same space. it happens in every rp ever about a billion times per day. i don't see how treating it as something SUPER SPECIAL that needs special precautions is making it less wanky. (6:42:55 PM) NDD: Frankly, because the last time I tangled with Aqua, I picked up a reputation as rapist stalker who spams people with tag nags and who is a bonafide creeper. I'm happy to let the incident be water under the bridge, but I can't afford a second one. (6:44:00 PM) NDD: It's not a problem as long as I stay out of tagging people who I don't know, right? So let's just do that and everyone has a good time. That's a fair solution, isn't it? (6:44:18 PM) Sofia: well, i mean (6:44:39 PM) Sofia: it's up to you what you do At this point I was just fucking shitting myself. Oh jesus, have I pissed off Sofia. (6:45:27 PM) NDD: Yeah. Probably that should involve a little less thinking aloud in the future ne. (6:47:01 PM) NDD: Anyway the whole business will be funny drinking stories in a few months. And in the meantime fff I just hope everyone who comes will have fun and play what they want to play. AND SO I CONCLUDE WITH: sofia, aside from having to endure my insensible ranting, how are you. (6:53:19 PM) Sofia: ...honestly? a little frustrated. (6:53:35 PM) Sofia: i understand you wanna be done talking about it, and you seem to have made up your mind, but. (6:55:26 PM) NDD: Ah. As far as talking about it - I don't want to run out of your patience on the subject and I feel like I've already made you sit through too much. (6:56:01 PM) Sofia: ...if this was going to be such a huge issue, why did you give me the go ahead to get aqua into NDD's sexbutt in the first place? Oh jesus she's furious with me. (6:57:06 PM) NDD: This particular incident was kind of a perfect storm, and I failed to anticipate any such thing. And I'm almost embarrassingly eager to just do whatever it takes to make more room for her and to compensate for this dreadful faux pas. (6:58:28 PM) NDD: And, of course, I overthink everything. And the sooner I stop going on and on about it, the less of a big deal it will seem like to me. (7:00:06 PM) NDD: Really I should have just withdrawn my post quietly and shut the hell up from that point on. I apologize very much for getting so terrifically up in your face over it. She was silent. For a long time. (7:06:34 PM) NDD: Look let's just say: I won't change anything, we'll pretend the whole thing never happened, and I owe you one for putting up with my idiocy in general. Can we do that? She was still silent. For an even longer time. (7:26:32 PM) NDD: Ah - thanks for listening to me and for being the dude in the middle, and let's don't even worry about it anymore. Unless you're epically pissed at me in which case we'll figure something else out. JESUS CHRIST SAY SOMETHING. (7:27:11 PM) Sofia: fuck, i just-- look, i just feel like i dragged you both into a bad situation without even realizing it, and in addition to this my being upset is making you shut up and never say anything again. and i'm taking horrifically long to articulate myself because i dont' even know what i can offer aside from my own whining, but. fffffffffff. (7:27:46 PM) NDD: the only person who did any dragging was me! (7:28:27 PM) NDD: you're not responsible for my insane overplanning or delicate ~*~feelings~*~ any more than you were responsible for anything else that ever happened between me and aqua. (7:28:48 PM) NDD: I absolutely dread the idea that I've manage to compound my error by making you more uncomfortable with every stupid sentence. (7:28:59 PM) Sofia: but i did enable her to come over, and in retrospect, i feel like i should have known a little better (7:29:09 PM) NDD: I asked you to! (7:29:32 PM) NDD: And immediately overreacted as a result. This is all just me being silly. (7:29:54 PM) Sofia: really, i just wanna have my cake and eat it too. i like you and i like her and i really like the comm, but i know you two aren't terribly compatible, so really... (7:30:27 PM) NDD: So really I'll check with you before I jump on a post that looks like a sapphire in the water, and otherwise business as usual, okay? (7:32:11 PM) Sofia: ffff but ARE you comfortable with that, or are you just consoling me here because i made virtual puppy eyes at you VIRTUAL PUPPY DOG EYES?! I HAVE SHIT ALL OVER MY PANTS AND YOU WERE MAKING PUPPY DOG EYES?! (7:33:12 PM) NDD: it's really fine. really. honestly. (7:33:47 PM) NDD: also lol puppy eyes I've been sitting here nearly pissing myself with fear thinking that I'd mangled this whole business so badly that you'd leave and never come back (7:35:59 PM) Sofia: l-like that would happen (7:36:30 PM) NDD: sofia ;_; /GAYEST POSSIBLE INTERNET HUGS (7:36:59 PM) Sofia: ;_;/ (7:37:08 PM) Sofia: ...wow, that is a horrible emoticon (7:37:47 PM) Sofia: but anyway, thank you. (7:38:24 PM) NDD: okay so anyway uh I'm going to pour myself some tea and good lord why are you thanking me I should be thanking you ha ha did i say tea, it was actually some brandy in a snifter. like. a snifter FULL of brandy. (7:39:17 PM) Sofia: w-well for all of your scheming you are still always terribly considerate, so for that (7:40:13 PM) NDD: sh-shut up i'm totally hard and a bastard now let me sip my tea and pet this kitty and thank you sofia (7:40:43 PM) Sofia: :3 ♥ I kept trying to apologize for the vastness of a blunder that nobody else knew was so vast until I explained the whole thing. I am so very very smart. BTW Aqua is now a very high-volume and well-liked poster. It didn't take her very fucking long, did it! Sofia continues to be excellent company; I'm really enjoying watching Mifune crack a couple of uke skulls in one of our big group posts. And I am just about to launch the next stage of community expansion. The mistake with Aqua - that was a big mistake. But belaboring Sofia was a much bigger one. There are people who, if they left - rather if I drove them out - it would kill any interest I have in maintaining and growing my community. Aqua could not possibly stir up enough trouble that I couldn't, with time, get it under control - but without Sofia, I would have so much less reason to bother. PP says this is a scary weakness to have, but I like having scary weaknesses. :3c It adds zest to life! |
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