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You're totally insane, for starters. I mean starkers. INC is right (in more than just the fact that he agrees with me):

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you're an angry, angry man, so angry that you haven't been having any fun here for oh I'd say about a year now.

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Your memory IS faulty. Your troll post brought up two examples of this:
1. Fussbett's FUCK YOU post. Never happened,

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and what's worse is that it is completely unlikely to boot.

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Fussbett has the coolest jets here, chief, and has had them for a considerable time. He doesn't even post unless he's got forms countersigned in triplicate from his post excellence engineers.

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2. Zseni's PURPLE JUNTA RAGE. Remember what that was about? No, it wasn't a tantrum! It was Zseni saying she would like articles and article editing to be in the forums, and if they weren't in the forums she wouldn't like to be a part of them.

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Zseni was writing herself out of the Purple Junta, and you were most vocal about it!

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But but but but in your last explosive shitheap, the "troll" post, you expressly claimed you MISSED watching me YAMMER PEOPLE INTO THE GROUND. What, in your hazy halcyon fever-dreams of Caltrops yore, did you think that looked like, exactly? Someone getting totally humiliated by their own stupidity, with me as commentator? You're looking at that one right now.

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Well no, you aren't using it, because it's out of your personal control.

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You mean those people are making fun of me?

BTW I cannot believe you're so anal-retentive that you typed in the name="Zseni" for each and every quoted section. Tell me you cut and pasted, at least.

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Seconds ago you were protesting my libel against the faultless working of your memory, and here you are squandering your most priceless virtue: your reputation for honest self-examination. BDR, really, I'm not worth it.

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You know, I was a pioneer in the not-putting-Caltrops-into-the-hands-of-lunatics movement, and I got a lot of shit for it then.

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I don't expect that shit to stop coming down the line for it now that Lead Psycho Apologist is frothing at the best regulars and proclaiming everywhere that Caltrops is his site. A user admin! His site!

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So often genius is mistaken for pretentious pablum by those who have not the wit nor education to understand it. But do you elect to learn, or to scoff loudly with your braying donkey "friends" at the brave soldier of truth who speaks a language that you cannot yet comprehend?

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One may speak all the wisdom of the ages to a dog, but the dog only recognizes the sound of its name. I think this is why you jump all over me for mentioning your name, and have nothing at all to say about the priceless pearls of knowledge I scatter hither and yon across this forum.

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What does "TOP of google" even mean, you crazy crazy person?

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Self-censure what? Your personal ongoing life trauma is an open book thanks to your demonstrable inability to keep your minute-to-minute emotional status out of your posts.

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Yes, you certainly have, along with a Hunter S. Thompson-style laundry list of hard and heavy recreational (and vocational!) drugs. On the count of me not being half the scary drug-abusing felon you are, I find me: guilty as charged.

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Let me spell this out for him, for there is none so blind as he who will not see: you see, BDR? You think I'm talking about you even when I'm talking about someone completely different, and then - when I actually AM talking about you, you think I'm talking about someone else! Because you're stone cold nuts!

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You totally believed "SB" when "he" "told you" that I had posted several anonymous criticisms of you.

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Criticisms, you later whined, that "hurt", criticisms you "knew" had to come from "me." Only they didn't, and you are particularly bad at picking out my ATORs - happily replying to Hobo, for example, when Hobo posts apologetic praise to you using my nick, and happily indicting totally unrelated ATORs as being my work. Of course most of that stuff is gone now, along with the rest of Old Caltrops.

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Likewise I'm not trying to trick you into doing anything here. You're just paranoid. Clinically? Dunno, but you have to be getting close to it by now.

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Well, I was being a bit flip since we all know your drug of choice is cocaine.

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But short of that I would say you're drunk...a lot! Because you're irrationally angry and no longer able to tell when people are joking or not;

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because you have problems handling your Caltrops; because you're replying in horrible earnestness to a post that was 90% obvious mockery to 10% well-worn truth. Who knows what your other substance abuse problems are? I think I saw an episode of Law And Order like this, but I'm pretty sure that within five years you are engaging in illegal organ transactions with international crime lords in order to score your fixes.

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Hey I'm not stupid, I watched Poltergeist 2.

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You no doubt can down 12 shots of anything without even thinking about it, on one count because you drink early and often and that's just to get you to your three martini lunch, and on the other count because you're going to offset it straight away with an ephedrine/cocaine cocktail.

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But 12 shots, later going up to 18 and change, in a two hour period - that's not too bad for a young lady who isn't addicted to anything at all!

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You can't even remember stuff that happened yesterday, can you? What am I talking about, you probably can't even remember stuff you posted five minutes ago.

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Your responses don't validate anything but the level and intensity of your "annoyance": high, and tight. Indirectly you are giving the signal that my criticism is something you take more personally than you take the average poster's, therefore there's something special about either it or me. I'm sorry, dummy, but there is no magic post vortex that sucks up your motivation for responding and replaces it with "totally chill conversation for fun."

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I don't think you're bored with me. You're reading most of - if not all - my posts and you respond to some of them at considerable length. You keep bringing up Binro like it's a meaningful comparison, but Binro was and is a genuinely sick individual who had and has a compulsion to post in a place that would punish him for doing so. At the present moment you are much closer to that line than I am: admitting hurt, and "annoyance", and anger, and continuing to return to the source(s) of those negative emotions.

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I wanted Caltrops out of SB's hands because he was generally unreliable and prone to misusing his administrative powers. I want Caltrops out of your hands because you can't take it here anymore, and I think it's only a matter of time before you crack and do yourself some permanent damage. You will no doubt respond, either here or to yourself, with a mass of excuses and protestations that you were just trolling or kidding or it's a big joke or I'm pulling some kind of savior act. But I don't mind pushing you over the edge just to watch you fall, for starters, and after that you should consider why you're so immensely defensive. Maybe you don't want to admit that reason to me or to anyone else on here, but if you can't admit it to yourself then you have a serious problem and you need to, at the very least, take a good long break from this site and get your head screwed on straight again.

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I don't need to lecture you on obsessive-compulsive behavior, BDR. You know the symptoms and signs, but you might not realize that you're presenting them. You are.