The point is you are so good, it makes me feel like an amateur. Not the professional with nearly a decade of experience that I am. You make me feel like everything I’ve done, everything I want to do, is in vain, because I will never make something as beautiful, or as full of depth and meaning. I realize now that every idea I’ve ever had, every mechanic I’ve ever dreamed of including in a game, is nothing but evolutionary fluff compared to a true masterpiece.

Do I hate you? Do I hate you for making me want to give up on all my dreams and ambitions? To crawl under a rock and pretend that I never even tried, so as to minimize the trauma?

Do I love you? Will you be the inspiration that leads me to create my own masterpiece? Or at least, something I can be truly proud of and call my own?

I hope that it’s love, I fear that it’s hate.