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Let's make this journey together, hand in hand. by conflictNo 03/06/2003, 2:59pm PST
Bill Dungsroman wrote:

conflictNo wrote:

I ended up telling the ex about my big plans. I wasn't expecting her reaction to be so very excited and happy, and it has really been messing with my head.


"Yay, he'll be in Africa and I'll never hear from him again! The guilt will die away so much quicker and easier now!"

conflictNo wrote:

Since then, I've been dreaming about her nearly every night for the past 3 or 4 weeks (which is significant enough in itself) and every time I find myself feeling the kind of happiness that I've never felt in real life before. It's like a drug, and even though it's certainly not helping me get over her, I do like it. I still have no idea what happened with us or what our relationship really is right now.


It's nowhere. NO WHERE. Don't be confused like Skeet Ulrich in the tepid new show Miracles and think it's "NOW HERE," it's nowhere. Your life is not a romance film, cNo. Despite great distance and time, they never lost each other... EEENNT!! Legends of the conflictNo? No. This is killing me, cNo. YOU WILL FUCKING REGRET THIS.

conflictNo wrote:

I had the big interview yesterday with my recruiter, and there were hardly any jobs in the Americas available, let alone in assignments I'm qualified for, so there is no chance I'll show up in her country. Right now my primary choice is a community service assignment somehwere in Eastern/Central Europe. The other jobs I'm qualified for are all in Africa, and I have a feeling that is where Peace Corps HQ is going to want me. We shall see, United States Government. Wherever I go, it won't be until August, and just a little hint but you might all be learning why your filthy asses are going to be living in shipping containers in the future.


Oh! Africa! The HIV and Ebola capital of the world! And those are just the diseases that get the big press. There's several dozen parasitic diseases (Malaria, etc.) that you'll no doubt get from your first drink of water. D00d Yellow Fever RAWX! And it smells! Everyone's ugly! People shit in the streets! You will have to, too!

Please stop. YOUR MIND IS GETTING FITTED FOR A FUCKING MILK CARTON (Have you seen me?) BUT I TELL YOU DO NOT JOIN THE FUCKING PEACE CORPS.

BDR




We've come a long way, BDR, you and I.

I do still have some issues with the ex, but she was my first real love and it's going to take however long it takes to get over her completely, no matter what I do. I decided that I was going to try and be friends with her, not only to see if I could and somehow win a small psychological victory, but also because when I graduated I reflected on how I'm a bridge-burning motherfucker - that needs to change.

I may end up in Africa and I may not. They could certainly use the help, and that's how I'm looking at it. There are 1869 volunteers currently working in Africa, and if they can do it then so can I. I've got the immune system of a bubble boy, inside the bubble, and I hope that can be of some use wherever I go. Maybe it won't, but I'll be getting sick along with everyone else. I'm not blindly idealistic about this, but it's all in the attitude, man. Only 2/3rds of volunteers complete their service (my ex said one girl left the first week) and I've read somewhere that 22 volunteers out of about 15,000-20,000 have died over the past five years, but I like those odds. Plus, if I go to Africa I can buy a cool booney hat and probably walk amongst the majestic giraffe.

I was going to add something about how I've never dreamed of anyone from OMM/Caltrops, but oh, sweet spirits, last night I had a dream where I was reading a post from Monty that was some clever story about "Michael's" (a big arts and crafts store around here) and I was pissed off that I hadn't thought of something like that.


cNo
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    You hate your mother -nt- NT by Entropy Stew 03/05/2003, 6:37pm PST NEW
    Re: DREAM INTERPRETATION PLZ KTHX by laudablepuss 03/05/2003, 6:41pm PST NEW
        WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? by laudablepuss 03/05/2003, 6:42pm PST NEW
            Re: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? by Zseni 03/05/2003, 7:01pm PST NEW
                I had a dream Mike Tyson punched me in the face... by Chairman Mao 03/05/2003, 7:24pm PST NEW
                    I was floating through an old friend's house last night by Entropy Stew 03/05/2003, 7:44pm PST NEW
                        Re: I was floating through an old friend's house last night by Jhoh Creexul 03/05/2003, 8:15pm PST NEW
                            Not nearly as cool as the one I had a couple nights ago by Entropy Stew 03/05/2003, 8:32pm PST NEW
                                An even better one a couple minutes ago by Entropy Stew 03/06/2003, 1:22pm PST NEW
                                    Re: An even better one a couple minutes ago by Jhoh Creexul 03/06/2003, 8:33pm PST NEW
                        I was floating through your house last night by Bill Dungsroman 03/06/2003, 1:12am PST NEW
                            The shut-in is me by Senor Barborito 03/06/2003, 1:30am PST NEW
                Re: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? by veronica 03/06/2003, 12:56am PST NEW
                Half dream. Half War & Peace. All E/N. Take that, rules! by conflictNo 03/06/2003, 1:38am PST NEW
                    Why the fuck are you still joining the Peace Corps? by Bill Dungsroman 03/06/2003, 11:40am PST NEW
                        You've got it wrong by Senor Barborito 03/06/2003, 12:01pm PST NEW
                        Let's make this journey together, hand in hand. by conflictNo 03/06/2003, 2:59pm PST NEW
                            That title gave this subthread much-needed gayness by Bill Dungsroman 03/06/2003, 5:41pm PST NEW
                                Um, thankless fuck by Senor Barborito 03/06/2003, 5:53pm PST NEW
                                    Funny you should mention this... by Bill Dungsroman 03/06/2003, 5:56pm PST NEW
                                    Because it needs to be said by Entropy Stew 03/06/2003, 5:58pm PST NEW
                                Count yourself lucky. by creativepig 03/06/2003, 8:17pm PST NEW
                                Speaking of which... by Mischief Maker 03/09/2003, 10:45am PST NEW
                            Anyway, I found you a replacement. Do you live in Texas? by Bill Dungsroman 03/06/2003, 5:58pm PST NEW
                            cNo: a man desperately in need of quality time at intellectualwhores.com by jeep 03/10/2003, 11:31am PST NEW
                                AK-47s go for $8 in the Congo, FYI -nt- NT by Senor Barborito 03/10/2003, 7:32pm PST NEW
            Also by E. L. Yossarian 03/05/2003, 10:33pm PST NEW
                Re: Also by Jhoh Creexul 03/05/2003, 11:27pm PST NEW
                It was my favorite book in high school. The movie sucked NT by Senor Barborito 03/06/2003, 12:13am PST NEW
    pic please -nt- by Ray, of Light 03/05/2003, 6:44pm PST NEW
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        Yes. All two of them. You stud. n/T NT by mrs. johnson 03/05/2003, 9:08pm PST NEW
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